Why had she let him go? John was what she wanted, John was the man who could give her a family and a life. But she’d let him go. Stubborn, unwilling to lie and leave, now she’d live without him.

Why hadn’t she run after him like in the movies? Why couldn’t she profess her love and jump into that car and whisk off to a fairy-tale ending? Because her fairy tale included the people she’d have to give up forever. Without her friends—her family—there was no happy ending.

But without him, there was no happy beginning.

If you ever need anything, absolutely anything, or if you want to get a message to me, call Henry.

She did want to get a message to him. She had to tell him: I know what I want now. Not a baby, but you. You and your family, our family, any family. All I want is you.

Leaning against the wall, she pulled out her phone with a shaky hand. She carefully dialed the extra-long number, including an international code. Taking a breath, she pressed the phone to her ear and imagined Henry’s face as he looked at the screen and realized his job just got more complicated.

The first ring startled her, it was so loud. The second one seemed to last forever. The third one matched the flutter of her heart as she slowly sank to the floor.

In the middle of the seventeenth ring, she hung up and stared at the two pink lines. They weren’t nearly as beautiful as she’d always dreamed they’d be.

Chapter Thirty-three

The Red Russian was more than ready to harvest. Tessa kneeled before the long row, examining the largest leaves, the red veins like lifeblood to the brilliant green.

“Best kale yet,” she whispered, breaking the best leaf close to the stem to enjoy a good sniff of the gorgeous smell of earth and vegetable. After the kale, she’d tackle the citrus crop, since those trees were heavy with fruit.

She started to pick the kale, kneeling, humming, letting the sun warm her head and air clear her thoughts. Every day had gotten a little easier. With the farming and friends to occupy her mind and a tiny life inside her to occupy her body, she hardly thought about the man who’d left four weeks ago. And five days. And seventeen hours.

The cell phone she now carried everywhere—just in case—vibrated with a welcome message. Yanking off a gardening glove, Tessa pulled the phone from the pocket of her cargo shorts, tapping the screen and trying not to let Zoe’s name give her a punch of disappointment. Maybe another week and she’d stop hoping. Another month, surely. She squinted at the message.

Visitors on the way to garden. Brace yourself for cuteness overload.

Cuteness overload? With Zoe that could mean a hot guy or a sweet baby or some starry-eyed honeymooners on their way to tour the gardens. All her friends were being overly protective of Tessa’s wild emotional swings these days.

No need. She was fine.

You sure are.

She snapped a few more leaves and heard his voice. The American voice that made her laugh. The British voice that made her sigh. And now silence just made her cry. She’d never tried that number again, certain he must have not wanted her to find him. Of course, it was safer this way.

But that didn’t stop her from wondering where Ian was right now. Hopefully setting up his new life in New Zealand, kids by his side. Sighing, she crawled deeper into the bed of greens and cracked off kale leaves with a crisp, spare movement, getting a whole row finished before a childlike giggle floated over the fields, making Tessa look up.

By the rockrose hedges, she saw two children snagging blooms. So the cute overload was kids. Shielding the sun with one hand, she peered toward them, sizing up the guests. Usually garden tours were for the organic moms interested in growing all their food in their own backyards. But there were no adults in sight, only two tots plucking at the irresistibly bright flowers.

Tessa pushed up. Any minute a young mother would appear to limit the rockrose theft, so she wanted to assure them they could take all they wanted. The blooms were plentiful, doubling sometimes overnight, and the pink flowers made lovely little hair decorations for the girls.

But no mother came around from the villa side, so Tessa set down her basket and took off one gardening glove, using her bare hand to brush the dirt from her knees as she eyed the tiny tourists. Very tiny, if she could tell from this distance. Mere toddlers, scampering around, snagging more flowers, the music of their high-pitched voices ringing across the open fields.

She took a few steps, waiting until she got closer to call out to them, careful not to startle them.

As she got about twenty feet away, she could see they were not even five, a boy and a girl whispering as they picked the lower half of one hedge completely clean of fuchsia flowers.

“We have about five million!” the little boy called out. “Is that enough?”

Tessa laughed softly. “That’s probably enough.”

The girl turned then, her eyes widening as Tessa approached. Suddenly, she shook her head ferociously and grabbed the boy’s arm, turning him so he could see Tessa.

“It’s all right, honey,” Tessa assured her, holding up her hand in greeting. “I’m the gardener and you can take some flowers.”

They both stared at her.

“Is your mommy here?”

The girl’s eyes widened and the boy shook his head.

“Daddy?”

Another shake.

Tessa reached them, taking in their porcelain white skin, free of a single freckle. Snowbird babies, she thought, on a winter Florida vacation.

“Are you with a grown-up?” she asked gently.

The little girl turned to the other boy, clearly a brother, and whispered in his ear. He nodded, listening before meeting Tessa’s gaze. “Can she have the flowers?”

Tessa’s heart folded a little. “Of course.”

The girl shook her head, blue eyes flashing, and then whispered again, clutching his arm.

“Okay,” he said, calming her. Looking at Tessa, he said, “She wants you to know they’re a gift.”

“For your mom?” she asked.

“For you.” The man’s voice, soft and low, came from behind the hedge, startling her and making the children turn.

“Is this our lady, Ian?” the boy called out.

The words jumbled for a moment, not making any sense.

Had he said…Tessa put a hand over her chest, as if that could contain her heart and catch her breath. Ian?

“I believe it is our lady.” He stepped out from behind the thick hedge, slowly enough so the sunshine poured over him and highlighted his tentative smile. His hair was cut much shorter, his face shaved clean, but his eyes were as blue as—as the two sets staring at her.

“Oh, yeah. This is most definitely our lady.”

She was dreaming. Dizzy, dazed, and dumbstruck.

The boy elbowed the girl. “Em! Now, like we practiced?”

She took a slow step forward, lifting a fistful of flowers, her creamy cheeks deepening with color as she looked right at the ground.

“Hello, pretty Tessa.” Her voice was little more than a breath of sweet air, but it was enough to practically do Tessa in.

“Oh…” With shaking hands, Tessa reached for the offering with her ungloved hand, all blood and reason draining from her head. “Hello.”

The boy got next to her. “She’s Emma. I’m Edward.”

And I’m speechless. Tessa blinked and finally let her gaze settle on the man, who walked up behind them, putting his hands on their shoulders.

“I’m Ian Browning,” he said softly, the British accent as mesmerizing as the smile on his lips.

She couldn’t speak. Her mouth opened, but nothing would come out.

The little girl leaned over to whisper to her brother again.

“She wants to pick those yellow flowers,” he said, pointing at a row of hibiscus.

“Of course,” Tessa said.

The kids took off, each one taking a different path around her as they tore to the trees.

She took a slow breath and stared at the man in front of her. “I don’t understand this.”

“Neither do I.” He took a step closer, nothing but warmth and love in his eyes.

“But…” All the questions welled up inside her. Why was he here? With his children? Openly calling himself Ian Browning and speaking in his native accent? But she couldn’t form a single question, because he was so close all she could do was look. And when he reached for her gloved hand, all she could do was let him take it and when he leaned close, all she could do was close her eyes and brace for impact.

“I don’t understand how I could even imagine a life without you.” He breathed the words into her ear. “And now I don’t have to.”

“John…”

He inched back. “Ian.”

“How is that possible?”

A high-pitched squeal came from the kids, making them both turn to see them running wild around a lemon tree, Emma’s curls flying and Eddie’s legs whirring.

Ian pulled her closer as he looked from the kids to her. “They’re mine.”

She laughed. “I assumed as much.”

He shook his head. “No, I mean they’re really mine. To keep and raise out in the open.”

Joy flooded her, like warm rain from her head to toes. “I’m so happy for you.”

He brushed her hair off her face with one hand, still holding her other. “Bloody hell, I missed you, woman.”

More joy cascaded. No, not joy. Love. A straight-out, full-on, explosion of true love. “How is it that you are out here in the open air, being…you? What happened?”

He sighed. “Lightning struck twice.”