“It’s beautiful,” he said. “Is that the one you want?”
She smiled and nodded. “Yeah, I think so.”
“Let’s get it.”
They went in search of a salesperson to help them, and along the way, West eyed the mind-boggling amount of baby stuff to be bought.
“Should we, uh, be buying all this other stuff, too? Because I can cover the tab. It’s the least I can do-”
“Not yet,” she said. “There’ll probably be a shower in another month or two, and people will give us gifts. Once we see what everyone’s given us, then we can go shopping for the stuff we still need.”
There was that word. We. She’d used it three times. And us.
He liked hearing her talk that way, but he also knew she only meant it in the simplest sense. She wasn’t suggesting anything by it.
Or was she?
The way today had gone, how could she not start thinking of them as a couple? They’d seen their baby for the first time together. They were shopping for cribs now.
This was heavy-duty stuff.
His throat went tight, and he tried to stuff down his feelings as Soleil talked to a salesperson about having the crib delivered to her house.
He could feel his future taking shape for the first time. Until now, he’d lived his life in the moment. He’d lived for the thrill of his work and nothing more, but now…
Now he had something bigger to live for. And his baby was depending on him to make a plan, to think about the future, to be responsible in a way he’d never been called upon to be before.
He knew what he had to do. So many things made sense now that didn’t before. Soleil and him-they had a lot to decide, and at the same time, all the decisions were obvious.
He didn’t want to play it cool. He wanted to make sure Soleil understood that they were supposed to be together. No more taking his time, giving her space, or any of that crap.
He was going to make them a family, the way they were supposed to be.
SOLEIL ALLOWED the motion of the car to lull her into a trance as they rode back to Promise. She was surprised at what a good day she and West had had together. She could even imagine them working well together as parents. No, that was probably pregnancy hormones getting the best of her.
She cast a glance at him, then looked away again quickly before he could make eye contact.
Could they be happy together?
Was it really so preposterous an idea?
Soleil believed romantic notions were mostly societal constructs designed to keep men and women in traditional roles. They persisted because they served to keep civilization intact. They didn’t necessarily serve any individual-and certainly not any female individual-well.
But what about the baby?
Her gut wrenched. That was the reason the societal constructs existed. Family units were good for raising babies. The individual was supposed to be overshadowed by the needs of the child.
She felt again as if some vital part of herself was slipping away. What if she ceased to recognize herself at all?
If she was committed to West, would any part of the real her be able to survive?
He was the strongest man she’d ever been with. And, she had to admit, she was used to being the strong, dominant one in the relationship. That was part of the reason she and West had butted heads so frequently in the summer.
But was her sense of self really so fragile that she couldn’t be involved with a strong man who didn’t agree with her on every damn issue?
Hell, no.
“You’re being awfully quiet over there. Anything bothering you?” West asked, breaking the silence.
“Oh, um, no.”
He glanced in her direction but said nothing.
“Okay, yeah. I’m thinking about, you know, how things are going to work, once the baby arrives.”
“Yeah?”
“It’s complicated,” she said, stating the obvious.
“It doesn’t have to be.”
Maybe he was right.
“I don’t know,” she said quietly.
“It’s been nice, spending the day with you. Thank you for inviting me.”
“Of course, you can come to the next-” She stopped, realizing too late that he wouldn’t be around for the next one.
“You can call and tell me about it if I’m not here.”
If I’m not here.
“What do you mean?”
He shrugged. “I don’t know. I mean, we have to work out some way to share custody of the baby, right?”
“But you’re in the air force.”
“I don’t know. Maybe I could get assigned to Travis Air Force Base. Then I’d only be a few hours away and could commute here on weekends.”
“Really? That’s a possibility?”
“I have no idea. Honestly, it would probably be a career-ending move for me. I need to go overseas next to stay competitive for promotion.”
Soleil kept her gaze glued on the passing scenery. Her eyes stung, though. She didn’t like to hear West putting his career first, which was ridiculous since she wasn’t sure she wanted to hear him say he was moving to Promise, either.
“What about you?” he said. “What does your ideal future look like?”
She sighed. “It used to look pretty much like my present looks now. I love the farm. It’s been the happiest place in my life ever since I was a little kid visiting my grandparents there.”
“So you want your own child to experience it, too.”
“Of course.”
“I don’t know what my ideal future looks like now. With a kid, do you even get to hope for ideal? Or do you simply hope for healthy and safe?”
“I’ve never had to think about it before.”
“Neither have I.”
In that, at least, they were united.
But it was cold comfort, and Soleil didn’t dare to hope for anything more right now.
CHAPTER TEN
WHEN JULIA’S DOORBELL rang at exactly six the night of her first date with Frank her heart leaped from her chest into her throat. She paused in the foyer and took a few deep, cleansing breaths, but they did little to calm her nerves. Then she opened the door, saw Frank standing there, clutching a bouquet of lavender, and the tension drained away.
“Hello,” she said.
“These are for you.” He smiled, handing her the flowers, and she realized he was as nervous as she had been.
This realization had the effect of calming her even more. She was charmed by the fact that he cared enough to be nervous. Inhaling the scent of the lavender, Julia stepped aside and invited Frank in.
Then she wondered for a moment if she was making some horrible mistake. Wasn’t this how women ended up in the news, unsuspecting victims of violent crimes perpetrated by men they’d met on the Internet? If she closed the door, she’d officially be home alone with this stranger, and-
No, she had to stop this. She was being paranoid.
He looked around. “This is nice. Have you been here long?”
“Ten years,” she said. “I bought my condo after the divorce.”
He gazed up at the high, slanted ceiling with its wood beams. Then his gaze went to the wall, where Julia’s one great extravagance hung. It was an etching she’d bought a few years ago when she’d stopped teaching, a retirement gift to herself.
“Wow, a Lily Keith?” He crossed the room to get a closer look at the stark black-and-white image of a city bursting with life.
“Yes. She’s one of my favorite artists.”
“You have great taste. Did you know she has an exhibit in San Francisco right now at the MOMA?”
Julia blinked. She had to keep reminding herself that Frank was an artist and was therefore interested in art-not only football or hunting or the rest of the stereotypical male interests about which she had little to say.
“Oh? I had no idea.”
He grinned. “Would you like to see it?”
“I’d love to.”
“Tonight?”
Julia laughed in surprise. “I doubt we could make it to the city before the museum closes.”
He smiled. “Good point. But soon, we should go.”
She liked his spontaneity. She needed more of that in her life.
He looked back at the etching, and Julia took the opportunity to study him. He was dressed a little more formally this evening than he had been the first time she’d seen him, in a brown leather coat, a white button-down shirt and a pair of brown khakis that managed to somehow look relaxed and creative rather than stuffy and conformist. She loved that he had a touch of style, on top of being an attractive man.
She was already feeling silly for worrying that he might be someone to fear. He seemed as if he belonged in her home, as if he were an old friend who’d always been part of the landscape.
“You have a flair for decorating,” he said as he surveyed the room.
“Oh, I just have too much time on my hands,” she said, waving away his compliment, though secretly, she was pleased.
He eyed her. “I doubt that.”
“I was thinking we could walk to the town center and have a drink, then wander around to find a place that looks good for dinner.”
“Sounds perfect,” Frank said, smiling. “I don’t come out here to Promise enough. I’ve always loved this town.”
Julia got her coat from the closet and put it on. “The first time I came here, I knew it was where I wanted to live,” she said as they walked outside and she locked the door.
“Where did you grow up?”
“Oh, all over. My father was in the military, as was my ex-husband. I lived everywhere from Korea to Tulsa in my first eighteen years.”
They began walking toward town. Outside, it was dark, but the streetlights in the condo complex illuminated the way out to the main road. The bittersweet scent of the redwoods that grew across from Julia’s unit permeated the air. She loved being able to walk everywhere she needed to go, while still living right next to the lake, too.
“That must have been difficult, moving all the time.”
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