“I just think it’s too soon to know. Maybe it worked.”

He nodded again, but the furrow didn’t fade.

“How is Nonna?” Without her easy connection to Angie, information was limited.

“There’s fluid.” Tony squeezed her ankle again. “She’s tired. Uncomfortable. It’s not looking good.”

“I’m sorry.” Trish had said it too many times where Nonna was concerned. It had probably lost its impact by now, but she didn’t know what else to say.

“Me too.” He slid his hand to her calf, milking the muscle as he stared over the top of her head.

Minutes dragged, with Trish afraid to move. She looked at the television, hoping to settle her heart’s erratic beat, but her head throbbed, her hip cramped, her chest strained. She wanted to open her mouth and deep breathe. She wanted to shift her weight off her aching hip. But she didn’t want to distract him. Something in the heavy air told her what might help, what could happen next.

And then he lunged forward, grabbing the remote control. “I’m done with this.”

Without the flickering of the TV, the room grew darker. Only the pendant lighting from the kitchen cast a soft glow.

Tony’s hand shifted down her leg until once again he held tight to her ankle. “I think we should do it again.”

“You do?”

“I do.” He pulled her leg from beneath her, eradicating any chance of her heartbeat returning to normal.

He straightened her other leg, and Trish shifted so her weight distributed between her butt and mid-back, pressing into the pillows. He moved closer, slipping a hand along her outer thigh, and all she could think about was having sex on a sofa he’d upholstered. Talk about irony. Talk about lunacy. She was getting carried away when she already had more than she could handle. “But Tony, maybe once was…”

“Not enough.” He was above her now, bracing his weight on his arms, which straddled her, gripping the back and arm of the couch. “Don’t tell me it was enough. I know basic biology.”

She released a shaky breath and inhaled spice and beer. The familiar scent she’d come to associate with him revved her libido. Basic biology. Right? Well, biologically speaking, having unprotected sex more often around the time of ovulation did increase one’s chances of conceiving, and since that was what they were trying to do, it did made sense. He made sense.

But then his warm, soft lips brushed hers, and nothing made sense anymore.

* * *

Tony was probably going to regret this. He’d never been an emotional sex kind of man. Years ago, he made a pact with himself to never be with a woman when he was feeling particularly high or low for fear that he’d associate her with joy or comfort. That sort of neediness crippled a man. Just ask Vin. And yet, here was Tony, torn up inside, wanting Trish to take away his pain. That was why he was planting kisses down her neck, wasn’t it? Then again, long before the conversation turned to Nonna he’d been thinking about doing this, touching Trish in all the ways he felt oddly entitled to do.

He wasn’t entitled to anything. She wasn’t his. So why did she feel made for him to hold?

“Tony,” she whispered into the breathy quiet of the room. “Maybe we should go upstairs.”

“Maybe,” he answered with his lips against her throat. But then she slid her hands beneath his shirttails, and he decided they weren’t going anywhere.

Capturing her mouth with his, he tasted her with his tongue. Sweet like soda. Hot like sex. And then her fingernails bit his back, causing him to groan and release more of his weight onto the cushion of her thighs.

She roamed his back in chaos, pawing and clawing and driving him deeper into her mouth. He wanted to touch her too, but the bulky sweatshirt stopped him, until on a grunt, he broke the kiss and pushed to his knees, whipping his shirt over his head. “Now you.”

She planted her hands against his abdomen, every wiggle of her fingers making him harder. “Not this again.”

He was already tugging the hem of her sweatshirt over her belly. “Not what again?”

“The striptease act. I hardly think it’ll be worth it with the lights off.” Her fingers teased his stomach until they reached the button on his pants.

“We’ll see about that.” He yanked the sweatshirt above her breasts and buried his face in her cleavage. She smelled like springtime, and tasted like the warmest, sweetest dessert. This time, he was going to…

“Doorbell,” she hissed, sitting with enough force to launch him off her chest. “Shoot.”

She scrambled to stand, leaving him sitting with his head in his hands, a hard-on in his pants, and the thought that the people she knew needed some manners.

“Oh God. I can’t tell who that is,” she said from her crouch in the kitchen.

“Leave it,” Tony growled in frustration.

“I can’t. What if it’s important?” She ran her fingers through her rumpled hair and sighed. “Why does this always happen to us?”

“Because your friends and family are rude. They should call first.”

The doorbell rang again, followed by a knock. “I’m going to answer it. Put your shirt on.” And she disappeared.

Tony leaned his back against the couch and mouthed an expletive into the darkness. There was a message in this, wasn’t there? Ma would say God was trying to tell him something, but damned if Tony could ever figure that sort of thing out. Maybe God didn’t want him messing with Trish any more than Angie wanted him to. Why did Tony find it so hard to do what other people wanted him to do?

A deep voice ripped through his wonderings. He couldn’t make out the words, but he was sure they were being said by a man. Standing, Tony crept into the kitchen and crouched beside the refrigerator, holding his breath for the best chance at sound.

“I’m sorry. It was impulsive. I shouldn’t have come. You’re obviously ill…or something,” the man said.

“No, I…Stu, I’m sorry I didn’t call you back. I was...”

“Sick. I can see that,” the man said. “Why don’t you head back to bed and I’ll call you in the morning.”

Despite the dread rolling in his stomach at the overly familiar words, Tony nearly laughed. The guy was a douche bag. Trish wasn’t sick, but Tony would happily take her back to bed.

“Maybe I can bring you some chicken soup and a bottle of pinot noir. How does that sound?” the man asked.

How did it sound? Awful, Tony thought, and then the dread in his gut ripped through his chest cavity like the bottle rocket he and Vin once put in Angie’s birthday piñata. A teenage Tony lost privileges for a whole month because of that.

He wasn’t coming out the loser tonight.

Tony stepped into the center hall before Trish answered the man. “Hey, babe. Everything okay?”

She spun like a demonic top, eyes wide, face red, hair escaping its band, and then her jaw dropped, probably when she saw Tony hadn’t put on his shirt like she’d asked. He would’ve felt bad for shocking her if he wasn’t blazing non-verbal threats from the center of his eyes at the stuffed suit on her porch.

“Oh, I see,” said The Suit with a side part in his hair.

“Stu, I…” she turned to The Suit and then back to Tony again. “Can you give me a minute?”

Tony nodded, never taking his eyes off The Suit, never taking one step outside of the hall.

“Not necessary,” The Suit said, shuffling backward off the porch. “It was good seeing you again. Hope you feel better soon. Tell your mother I said hello. Enjoy your evening. Again, my apologies.”

There was nothing worse than a grown man babbling.

When Trish called out a good-bye and shut the door, Tony meant to relax, mission accomplished and all that, but then she turned on him with the same shock from before.

“What was that?” she cried. “What were you doing?”

“Helping you.” Okay, now he wasn’t so sure, but it seemed like a good idea five minutes ago. “That guy’s a jerk.”

“You don’t even know him,” she yelled.

Tony flinched at the hurt in her voice. Obviously, The Suit was someone important. Tony didn’t like the feel of that. “I know all I need to know about him from that conversation. Ill? He thought you were sick?”

“Because I’m a mess.” She pulled her sweatshirt away from her body, and then plowed hands through her unraveled hair. Strands kinked in spots where braids had been.

“Oh yeah? Well, I think you’re beautiful, no matter what you’re wearing.” He grinned. “Although I prefer you naked, which you would be right now if that moron hadn’t barged in. But you know what? I’m glad he stopped by, because now maybe he’ll go out into your world and let everyone know we’re busy, and they shouldn’t stop by without calling us first.”

She gasped and backed against the door. For a moment he thought her legs were going to give out, so he walked to her. “What? What’d I say?”

“Don’t,” she said, lifting her palms, signaling for him to stop before he reached her.

“Why?”

“You’re making this too complicated.”

“Is that what I’m doing?”

“Yes. It’s always what you’re doing.” She clenched her fists. “There is no us, Tony. We can’t be beyond what we hoped to accomplish by having a baby.”

“Why? Because of him?”

She froze, mouth as wide as her eyes. Tony didn’t know where he was going with this line of questioning, and he didn’t know why he wanted to go there. He didn’t want we and us anymore than she did. This was about a baby. No more. No less.

“You should go,” she said, stepping aside from the door.

“I should.” But he didn’t. He stood there, staring at her flushed face, wishing to God he could say or do something to make this right. And in a few silent seconds, he knew there was nothing he could do.