"Robin, Robin…" Her last, faint resistance crumbled, for she could no longer remember why she had any doubts. Her hands kneaded his bare back, moving restlessly over his ribs and under the edge of his drawers. He was lying half across her, and the hard heat of his arousal pressed the outside of her knee. She moved her leg, deliberately rubbing that throbbing maleness.

He made a choked, yearning sound. Catching the hem of her shift in his left hand, he raised it to her hips. His palm skimmed the tender flesh inside her thighs with long, smooth strokes. Then he touched her intimately with his long, magician's fingers, probing the slick, hot folds. Chaotic waves of sensation surged through her and she moaned, her whole being a scarlet blaze of need.

His breath rough and hot, he whispered in her ear, "Ah, God, Maggie, it's been so long, so dreadfully long…"

Desire splintered, leaving Maxie stunned. Desperately she wondered if she might have heard wrong, but even in the tempest of passion, she couldn't lie to herself about something that mattered so much. "Not Maggie," she said with iceedged precision. "Maxie."

Robin's eyes snapped open, so close that she could see shock and something that was almost horror in the azure depths.

After a paralyzed instant, he flung away from her, throwing off the blanket and sliding from the bed. He staggered when he tried to stand, almost falling. Uncharacteristically clumsy, he sagged onto the edge of the mattress, bracing his elbows on his knees and burying his head in his hands. "Christ, I'm sorry," he said hoarsely. "I never meant for that to happen."

He was shaking violently. Lord only knew what torment filled his mind, but she sensed that it went far beyond frustrated desire.

Cold and bereft, she sat up as she struggled to find composure in the chaotic midst of confusion and thwarted passion. Dear God, but she had been a fool.

When she had mastered her instinctive, irrational rage, she managed to say, "It wasn't your fault. Blame it on the bed." Hating herself for her jealousy, she added caustically, "You wish that I was this Maggie?"

The muscles of Robin's back went rigid with strain, the hard planes sharply defined under his fair skin. After an excruciating silence, he said from behind his hands, "Some questions shouldn't be asked. And if they are, they shouldn't be answered."

Slow, humiliating heat rose in her face at the knowledge that she'd been a fool again. Yet she could not stop herself from asking, "Shouldn't be, or can't be?"

His hands dropped away from his face. All his dazzling, concealing frivolity had been stripped away, leaving the bare bones of anguish. "Can't be, I suppose."

He stood and walked to the window to stare out at the misty hills. Though he was leanly built, taut muscles flowed smoothly beneath his fair skin, like the languid power of an Adirondack mountain lion.

If he had been awake enough to know who she was-if it had been her whom he had really wanted- all of that male beauty would still be in her arms. They would be naked together, making love in the muted light of dawn.

Trying to bury her aching sense of loss, she asked quietly, "Is Maggie the woman you wanted to marry?"

"Yes." He exhaled wearily. "We were friends, lovers, partners in crime for many years."

Partners in crime? Maxie did not want to think of that now. "She died?"

He shook his head. "On the contrary. She is happily married to a man who can give her a great deal more than I."

Maxie felt a spasm of rage at the absent Maggie. A woman who could abandon a man like Robin for another of greater fortune was not worth such misery.

She would have said as much if words would have cured Robin of his grief, but logic held no sway in matters of the heart. Besides, Maggie's choice might have been made more for security than wealth. As a woman who longed for stability herself, Maxie could understand that. Life with Robin might be stimulating, but it would surely lack security.

The light was a little stronger, revealing faint parallel lines across his back. It took her'a moment to realize that they were the result of a savage whipping. Her heart twisted as she wondered what untold story lay behind those wicked marks.

She couldn't do anything about longhealed scars, but she could stop the goose bumps produced by the chilly air. She rose and took Robin's shirt from the chair where it had dried.

As she draped it around his shoulders, she said succinctly, "Your Maggie is a damned fool."

Robin turned his head and looked down at her, a faint smile on his face. His blond hair was more silver than gold in the half light. He pulled the shirt over his head, men wrapped his arm around her shoulders and tucked her close against his side. "She isn't, but I appreciate your partisanship."

Since Maxie's shift provided little protection against the cold, she slipped her arm around Robin's waist and leaned against him. Wherever they touched, there was warmth. The accidental passion of the bed had vanished, but there was still a spark of physical awareness between them. She supposed there always would be, even if they never acted on it.

There was also an odd kind of closeness. It must be rather like the feeling of soldiers who have survived a battle together. Thinking it might be good for him to talk, she asked, "What is Maggie like?"

He hesitated, weighing his answer. "Strong. Intelligent. Brave. Integrity to the bone. Rather like you, Kanawiosta, even though you look nothing alike." His arm tightened around her shoulders. "Except that you are both beautiful."

They fell silent, watching the sun inch above the horizon. She supposed that she should feel honored by his comparison, though it was not enough to eradicate the pain of knowing that he had been making love to her by accident, his drowsy mind filled with dreams of another woman. No wonder he had been ambivalent about the desire he felt for her.

She thought of the complicated mental landscape that she had dimly sensed when trying to teach him to listen to the wind. Some of the black places in his soul must be the agony of loss felt by a man who would not give his love often, but would give it wholeheartedly when he did.

She remembered also his bedrock core of honor. Though he loved another woman, he was also genuinely fond of herself, at least enough that he would not want to hurt her. That explained his restraint; an affair where her heart was available and his wasn't would definitely cause harm.

Her own ambivalence had not been eased. She felt a sudden, debilitating wave of bitterness at the way she was caught between two very different cultures, understanding both but belonging to neither. Among her mother's people, an unmarried woman could lie with a man without censure. If she were a true daughter of the Six Nations, living in her own home among her kin, she would have been proud to take a lover.

But she was not her mother; she was a halfbreed.

True, she was no sheltered English miss, raised to bestow her body only on a man who would pay the price of marriage for the privilege of bedding her. But she was enough a product of her father's culture that she feared to express desire freely. To lie with a man without marriage would make her a wanton in the eyes of white society.

Yet there was no prospect of marriage with Robin. Life with her father had taught her that it was impossible to coax a restless man to settle down, a mistake to even try.

Even if Robin's loneliness had led him to make another quixotic offer, as when he had suggested going to Gretna Green, their backgrounds were too different to allow a permanent union. She would be a fool to hope for promises of love eternal, and a fool to settle for less. That did not mean there could be nothing honest and true between them, but giving in to passion would damage her heart and her future, possibly beyond hope of repair.

Refusing to let herself weep, she turned her face into Robin's shoulder. His other arm came around her.

"You must be sorry that we met," he said soberly. "I seem to be causing more trouble than I'm preventing."

Voice muffled against his fresh scented shirt, she replied, "I'm not sorry if you're not sorry."

He pressed his cheek against her hair. "No, Kanawiosta, I'm not sorry."

Her throat tightened. Yes, there was something very real between them. But it would never be love.

She resolved that from now until they parted in London, she would behave logically. She would accept and enjoy his wit and his friendship, and she would not allow herself to wish for greater intimacy.

Yet in the privacy of her mind, she acknowledged that logic would make for cold memories when Robin was gone.

Chapter 14

The carriage pitched and swayed in the rutted track. As Desdemona Ross braced herself wearily, avoiding the longsuffering expression of her maid and hoping the vehicle wouldn't break an axle before they reached their destination, an isolated inn called the Drover. It was a regular stop for traveling herds, and more easily reached on hooves than wheels.

With a final lurch, the carriage halted. Desdemona let herself out without waiting for her coachman to open the door For a moment she stood in the afternoon sunshine and savored the absence of rocking. The wind blew restlessly over the barren hilltop, rippling the grasses and twisting the clouds overhead. From the aroma, a herd had been through recently.

In spite of the directions she had received, it had taken time to find an accessible spot along the old ridgeway. She wondered if Maxima and Lord Robert had been here. Well, she should soon know. She set off toward the inn, which was made of winderoded stone and had served drovers for centuries.