Susan Johnson - Again and Again

“If you dare, I’ll scream.”

“Scream away.”

He meant it; he didn’t care. “Since when do you force women?” she spat

“I never do.”

“Arrogant bastard.”

He shook his head. “I just know how to pick the right women-you know, the ones who like to fuck. Now, spread your legs, darling. Both of us know your hot little cunt is always ready for more.”

She scrambled to get away, but he grabbed her as she rose to her knees and hauled her back, his grip on her waist brutal. “Now what do we have here?” he murmured, his gaze on her lush, pink bottom. Balanced on her hands and knees, she was conveniently open to him and he drew her closer despite her struggles to break free. “Down, sweetheart,” he whispered, sliding his palm down her spine. “I’m not quite finished with you. Five hundred pounds should certainly buy a last fuck in the morning.” With one hand splayed across the base of her spine and the other gripping her waist, he ignored her resistance and hauled her back until she was poised in all her bounteous beauty, wet and ready for his prick.

His erection was stiff against his stomach. Moving his hand from her waist, he guided his penis to her exposed vulva and plunged in.

If he heard her gasp, he gave no indication; he was already drawing back for the next powerful down stroke. Holding her hips in a harsh grip, he drove in over and over again, convulsed with rage, his breathing soon becoming rough and shallow as though he’d run ten miles. But it was untrammeled fury that brought him panting, that made him want to humble her and he took out his frustration in a brutal pounding assault, as though sheer force would mitigate his anger.

He could have come a dozen times, but he curbed the impulse, wanting retaliation more-craving vengeance for her refusal, needing to make her submit at least in this crude physical act, if no other way.

But then he heard it, as though his ears were attuned to her passions-that soft whimpering sound she made just before she climaxed.

Damn her, damn her burning hot cunt; did nothing blunt her insatiable hunger? In case she hadn’t noticed, this wasn’t a benevolent sex act meant for her enjoyment. Withdrawing quickly, he released his orgasm, spurting hot come on her back while she trembled and sobbed, unfulfilled.

The second he was finished, he rose from the floor without a backward glance and quickly dressed. He was swift and proficient; he’d left in a hurry once or twice before.

Pulling some bills from his pocket, he tossed them on the table. “You were worth every shilling,” he said, silkily. “And I should know.”

Grabbing up the bills, she threw them at him. “I hope you burn in hell or better yet, have Daphne as a millstone around your neck the rest of your life!”

He stared at her briefly, ignoring the bills at his feet “Wake up to the realities of the world, darling. There is no hell and Daphne doesn’t stand a prayer of getting what she wants,” a wicked smile flashed across his face, “unless it’s her stable boy. Now, if you should ever tire of instructing children, let me know. We could probably work something out.”

He ducked as she threw a candlestick at him, the brass holder striking the door with such force it chipped the wood. “Temper, darling,” he murmured. “You don’t want to lose this job.”

“Get the hell out before I forget how much I need this job,” she hissed, the sound of servants moving around the house becoming more audible.

He bowed faintly, looking disheveled and irritatingly handsome in his rearranged evening rig. “If you’re ever in London, look me up.”

“If I’m ever in London, I’ll take every precaution to avoid you.”

“That’s not very friendly.”

“But then you’re not really interested in a woman’s friendship, are you?”

He hesitated, and his mouth formed in a grim line for a moment. “Let’s say, I thought I was.” He reached for the doorknob and faintly tipped his head. “But then we all make mistakes.”

The knock on the door echoed through the room.

Caroline’s pulse rate soared.

“It’s only a servant at his hour,” Simon remarked, unconcerned. Opening the door, he offered the maid holding Caroline’s breakfast tray a pleasant good morning and strolled from the room.

Flushing with embarrassment, Caroline wished she could disappear into the floor. Since that wasn’t a viable option, she covered her nakedness with the quilt and tried to be invisible.

“Oh, miss,” Betsy sighed, turning back after watching Simon stroll away. “You be so lucky. All us girls been hoping the fine lord would look our way, we were. Oh, my, he’s ever so splendid.”

So much for her concern about appearances. Now if only she could be as cavalier as Betsy, Caroline thought. But perhaps the maid had the right perspective after all. Enjoy the fine lord and then get on with your life. With luck and a very bad memory, perhaps she could do just that.

Leaving his hosts a note of apology for his early, precipitous departure, Simon was soon on his way back to London. Slumped in the corner of his coach, his greatcoat pulled up around his ears, he drank from his flask and cursed women in general and one woman in particular for making his life a holy hell.

Bruno feigned deafness as any good valet would. But he’d not seen his master in such a black mood since the last time Lady Caroline had disrupted his life. A shame they couldn’t come to some agreement, but with two such stubborn personalities, perhaps any hope for harmony was a dream. On the other hand, at least, Lady Caroline was back in England without a husband.

He and Bessie would have to put their heads together.

The ruling classes occasionally needed a helping hand to manage their lives.

Responding to Simon’s curt order to open another bottle, Bruno set aside his musing, although he wondered what would give out first on their southward journey-the duke’s capacity for drink or the supply of brandy. Since they had orders to stop for nothing but post changes, the bottles in the coach would have to do. At least the trip home would be swift.

Caroline survived that first morning by sheer will, refusing to think of Simon, concentrating on the children’s lessons as though they were the most important mission in her life. She focused all her attention on their studies, explaining all the constellations visible in the northern skies, tracing with them Alexander the Great’s campaign to India, and when they began getting edgy, she played word games with them in all the languages they were learning, offering bonbons as prizes.

She ate more than her share of bonbons too, but after the nastiness with Simon this morning- which was inevitable, of course, he couldn’t stay forever-she needed solace… ten large bonbons of solace as it turned out.

When she brought the children down for tea late that afternoon, neither Ian nor Jane made mention of their departed guest. Scrupulously avoiding the subject, they offered Caroline tea as though she were a member of the family, and spoke instead of the coming holiday season. They discussed the numerous guests and family members they were expecting, and outlined the tentative schedule of activities that would take place at the house, in the village, and at the parish church.

Caroline was invited to each and every one of the events. “Please, think of yourself as part of the family,” Jane offered, her tone so sympathetic, Caroline blushed at the implication.

“Thank you. I will,” Caroline replied, wishing she could have avoided having tea with her employers, wishing desperately to escape to her room and never talk to another soul.

And perhaps cry for a month.

Although, she quickly jettisoned that irrational thought. She wasn’t about to cry over Simon. Not again. She’d already cried enough tears for him to last a lifetime.

It had been sensible not to allow herself to care.

He hadn’t changed one whit

On his return to London, Simon resumed his bachelor life with a vengeance. But what had been pleasure in the past, no longer pleased and what had formerly amused him, struck him now with ennui. He went through actresses and courtesans, society ladies and serving wenches by the score, changing his bed partners so often, the women became a blur on his retinas. He even thought about paying Daphne a visit just to break the monotony-and inquire how her romance with her stable boy was doing. But he couldn’t bring himself to care enough to make the effort.

After a fortnight in London in which he did nothing but drink himself into oblivion in the company of different women night after night, he called for his coach in the wee hours one morning. Bruno was wakened and given five minutes to pack a bag for the duke. He was off to Dover-alone. He had no wish to take Bruno from his family over Christmas.

As Simon climbed into his coach, he was hoping a change of scene would clear his head and obliterate the persistent images of a hot-blooded, auburn-haired beauty who preferred her independence to his company. Dropping onto the carriage seat, he rapped on the ceiling and reached for his flask. As the coach lurched forward, and began picking up speed, he gazed out the window at the street lamps flashing by, lifted the flask to his mouth and emptied half of it down his throat.

Damn her to hell. Didn’t she know independence was much overrated? Didn’t she understand independence for women didn’t actually exist? It was a fucking unobtainable vision, for Christ’s sake. Some nominal freedoms existed for bluestocking women he supposed. But only if they had money and only because no man would have them. Damn it, neither instance applied to Caro. Her father had much to answer for, though, in terms of her unorthodox notions. He’d raised her like a man.