Since he had left Elizabeth, a good many women had tried quite hard to live with him. He had let two of them begin but they had both had over-clear ideas about how life should be lived, and had been unable to keep those ideas to themselves. The only woman he had wanted, in ten years, to come and do whatever she liked with his life as long as she came, hadn't wanted to. She liked his bed, but preferred her own life outside it. Because of this, Sam had continued to love her and had stopped collecting his pupils like an array of Barbie dolls. They still flirted with him, particularly if essays were late, but these days he could just let them. In any case, the university now had a ferocious female Committee Against Sexual Harassment.

Sam had five years to go before he retired. When he retired, he thought he would go and live in Wales, preferably in a fishing community, and write a book on the power of language that would become an indispensable text book in schools. When he had done that, he would write fools' guides to the Bible and classical literature because he was still so exasperated, after thirty years of teaching, to find that clever modern students of literature were so ignorant of both that they couldn't get through a line of Milton without having to look up the references. After that, he thought he would probably die, and be buried in an austere Welsh hillside under the wheeling gulls. He didn't really want a headstone but he did want something to indicate that he had meant to be a poet, so that posterity should know that inside his apparently phlegmatic, idle, pleasure-seeking bulk, quite a lot of striving had gone on.

Standing in the Sainsbury's queue one August Friday, he was offered most of a very small, very wet dolly mixture by a gregarious baby in the child seat of the next trolley. He accepted it gratefully and ate it. It tasted of scented soap and reminded him of the sweets of his childhood. The baby reminded him of Charlie. Or rather, not of how Charlie looked, because Sam had only seen him once when he was too new to look like anything, but more that Charlie existed, that Sam had a baby grandson. In the early spring, Alice had sent Sam photographs of The Grey House and had said that it would all be ready for him, when he came for his annual summer visit. After that, he had heard nothing. He hadn't minded or noticed much, because he presumed that she had been too busy, and because he had been busy himself, but now, standing in the queue and smiling at the strange baby (it was not a pretty baby, it had a high domed forehead and its chin was glossy with dribble, but the gift of the dolly mixture had been true generosity in one so young), he thought that perhaps Alice's silence was beginning to have a flavour of oddness. Half the summer vacation had gone and she had not even telephoned. No more had he, he wasn't blaming her, but now that he thought about her, he found that he wanted to see her and his grandchildren. By the time he had got his groceries to the car, he wanted to see them very much indeed.

When he got home, he put the grocery boxes on the kitchen table beside the remains of a very good lunch of Scotch eggs and Guinness, and went to the telephone. Alice answered it with a kind of breathless eagerness, but when she heard who it was she became constrained.

'What's up?' Sam said.

There was a silence.

'Come on,' Sam said. 'Come on, Allie. Is something wrong?'

'A great deal has happened-'

'Are you all right?'

'Oh yes. Perfectly.'

'And the children?'

'Fine. Absolutely fine.'

'Don't fool around with me,' Sam said. 'I am your noninterfering father. I also smell a rat.'

'Martin isn't here any more-'

'Allie-'

'I fell in love with someone. Martin's living in Salisbury.'

Sam pressed the receiver against his skull until it hurt, and closed his eyes.

'I'll come-'

'Please. You don't have to. I really am managing. There's a lot to be decided, but I'm doing it, bit by bit.'

'Where's this other fellow? Is he with you?'

'It isn't a fellow,' Alice said. 'She's a girl.'

Slowly Sam raised a clenched fist and knocked his knuckles on his forehead, bang, bang, rhythmically.

'A girl.'

'Yes.'

A kind of groan.

'Allie-'

'I can't possibly explain over the telephone. Nor can I convince you how all right I am. Sad, of course, but all right.'

The children, how are the children-'

'They miss Martin and they miss Clodagh - that's her name, Clodagh - but we are getting by, getting on-'

'You thought I was Clodagh, telephoning-'

'Yes,' Alice said. 'I did. We haven't communicated at all for three weeks.'

'I'll come down tomorrow.'

There was a little pause and then Alice said, 'I'd like that.'

'Hold on there,' Sam said. 'Hold on.'

He was close to tears.

'I'm holding,' Alice said. 'I promise you I'm not going to fall off anything.'

'I'll be with you by teatime. No, earlier, lunchtime. I'll be with you by lunchtime.'

He put the telephone down. It was quite silent in his kitchen except for a bluebottle that had got into one of the grocery cartons and was fizzing about noisily against the cellophane packets of pasta. Sam went over to the box, pulled out his new bottle of whisky and took it into his bedroom, holding it against him with both arms. Then he lay down on his bed, still holding the bottle, and began to cry and cry, like a baby.

Mr Finch was unpacking New Zealand apples from nests of blue tissue paper. It was the sort of job Michelle should have done, but Michelle had handed in her notice because she said she didn't like his attitude to Mrs Jordan. She must have said something similar to her mother, because she had then left Pitcombe and gone to live with her married sister in Poole, and Gwen was buying twice as many Silk Cut as usual and wearing a face like a boot. One of the Crudwells, Heather, who wore black stonewashed jeans so tight you wondered how she had got her feet through, had offered to come and help instead. But Mr Finch was frightened both of her sexuality and her light-fingeredness, and had declined. So she had brought two friends into the shop to laugh at him with her, and he had been very miserable. Even Mrs Finch, whose sympathy for him had run out long ago on account of his want of style, had been sorry for him.

'It's Alice Jordan's fault. Without all that business, this would never have happened.'

She said that a lot now, in between reminding him that she had never, being a woman of experience, been one to judge. In Mr Finch's view, almost everyone judged. It seemed to him that he was probably the only person who didn't, and that was not because he had no opinion but because he was so entirely bewildered. The strangeness of the affair paralyzed him, he had never come across anything like it. The element that really shook Mr Finch was the combination of emotional and sexual unorthodoxy and - you could see this plainly on Alice Jordan's face - the reality of it. The thing was actual and stupefying. However much of a good face Alice put upon things, it was all too evident that with Clodagh away she was suffering real pain, the pain of having new, vital, tender roots ripped up at just the moment they began to take hold and grow. It frequently occurred to Mr Finch that he understood far more about poetry than about life, because life was often just too peculiar to take in.

A very few people felt as he did. He knew that because of the things they were doing. He'd heard that Mrs Macaulay had been up to The Grey House to offer Alice a puppy, a free puppy. Gwen had told him that, contemptuous of Mrs Macaulay and disgusted with Alice, who had declined the puppy and then gone into the downstairs lavatory and cried her eyes out. Buntie Payne, though prone to immediate distress if Alice's name was mentioned in the shop, had flown like an enraged kitten at Sally Mott who had remarked, for Mrs Finch's benefit, that villages were too small to cope with bad influences.

'Don't you use the word bad of Alice Jordan!' Miss Payne had cried.

Sally Mott had banged out of the shop and Miss Payne had had to sit down to weep and be given a glass of water and to explain, over and over again, how strongly she felt but how she couldn't quite describe what it was that she felt so strongly about.

The pub, where Mr Finch allowed himself a weekly pint, was simpler in its approach, perhaps because fewer women went to it. In the lounge bar the subject was hardly mentioned, and in the public, led by Stuart Mott, there was briefly considerable crudity and then, with the football season starting up, loss of interest. As for the church - well, here Mr Finch's frail faith, born out of a love of ritual and a powerful wish that something, some day, might come out of regular church attendance, was very disappointed. He had hoped for a sermon on sin, full of words like evil and phrases like wrong-doing, not because he wished to see Alice condemned, but because he wanted a stout moral rail upon which to put his own hand. What he had got was a sermon on St Barnabas and another on inner city renewal. The strange part, thought Mr Finch, gazing fixedly at a single apple he held in his hand, was that a business like this, an upset like this Alice Jordan-Clodagh Unwin thing, was that it drove you in on yourself for hours and hours of self-examination. The firm ground you thought you stood on suddenly began to heave and shudder and give way. Mr Finch put the apple on the rack with its fellows and frowned at it.

Behind him, Sam cleared his throat.

'I was wondering if you could direct me to The Grey House?'