‘Are you all right, Poppy?’ Jennie was at my elbow, peering into my face. I seemed to have dropped the milk bottle. It was flooding in a white lake all over the terracotta floor. Someone else, Angie, was quickly wiping it up, crouching in an elegant black shift dress and heels. I saw them exchange a concerned glance.

‘Hm?’ I came to. ‘Oh. Yes. Fine. Sorry about that.’

Peggy and the children arrived from across the road. The children ran about screeching, darting between adult legs, overexcited to see so many people in their house. Peggy swept in and positioned herself on a stool by my Aga, her usual spot. Once obviously beautiful, she’d kept the streaky blonde hair and the skinny figure and today was in leggings, pixie boots, a long black polo-necked jumper and bohemian beads. She chain-smoked and watched me carefully, her small smile ominously irreverent.

‘So everyone’s making themselves very busy?’ she observed in her gravelly way, as if a laugh was barely suppressed.

‘I know, aren’t they kind?’ I said, ignoring the inference. Much as I adored Peggy I wasn’t sure this was the moment for her refreshing take on life. ‘Oh, Angie, I thought we’d have the sausage rolls later, after the sandwiches have been … Oh.’ Angie had already swept through to the sitting room on a waft of scent.

‘When you’re bereaved, people behave as if you can’t see or hear,’ Peggy told me. ‘It’s as if you’ve been in a tremendous accident.’

I ignored her and went to get some more milk from the fridge. As I poured it into a jug, Jennie looked doubtful. ‘I’ve smelled it,’ I told her. ‘It’s fine, just a bit creamy.’

‘They like to have something to do,’ Peggy murmured. ‘Makes them feel useful. Takes their mind off you.’

Jennie got a fresh bottle of milk from the fridge, busily poured the first one away, then refilled the jug.

‘And anyway,’ Peggy concluded, ‘they don’t know what to say to you.’

‘No one ever does at a funeral,’ said Jennie.

‘Particularly one like this,’ remarked Peggy darkly.

I was glad when Angie’s teenage girls burst in, looking windswept and gorgeous: flowing hair, tiny skirts.

‘Hi, Poppy. Oh God, I’m so sorry about Phil.’ Clarissa flung her arms around me. ‘Poor you.’

‘And I’m so sorry we couldn’t come to the funeral, the train took literally hours.’ Felicity hugged me too.

Lovely, sweet girls with soft hair and beautiful manners, they knew exactly what to say, exactly how to behave, courtesy of a full-time mother and expensive boarding school. I hugged them back, hoping for the same for Clemmie one day, hoping to enable her.

‘Obviously he couldn’t get them here earlier,’ their mother remarked sourly, coming back in with her empty sausage roll plate. She banged it down on the side and hugged her daughters. ‘Oh no, it would be too much trouble to get out of bed and get them to the station on time. Too much of an inconvenience.’

Her daughters looked strained, even their pretty manners not stretching to a response to this, a reference to their father, Angie’s estranged husband, Tom, a delightful, twinkly eyed charmer, who, a year ago, had succumbed to the charms of Angie’s girl groom. In fact he’d done more than succumb and the pair of them were now ensconced in a cottage in Dorset, where the girls had clearly just come from. Uncomfortable, they stole silently into the next room.

Tom’s sudden defection had shattered this perfect, enviable family and Angie had gone from being a beautiful, slightly pampered woman who shopped in Knightsbridge, played tennis on her court in the summer and hunted her horses in the winter, to yet another abandoned wife who hadn’t seen it coming. Hitherto, her housework, garden and horses had all been seen to – and, it transpired, her husband – but if anyone had considered her spoiled, nobody would have wished this on her. The shock had aged her overnight and she’d looked all of her forty-one years. But Angie was a fighter, and recently she was better dressed than ever, more beautifully made-up – even when popping to the village shop for bread – although you didn’t have to look hard to spot the pain which flashed across those limpid blue eyes, or the tension around the full glossy mouth. Her daughters seemed as confident and charming as ever, but I couldn’t conceive that the ripples hadn’t reached them, and Angie told me sadly that they had: they were more tearful down the phone on a Sunday night from school, more demanding. And those ripples would surely reach Clemmie and Archie soon too, I thought in panic, as they felt their own father’s absence. Experienced their own void. At least Clarissa and Felicity had had a family unit for a good number of years; at least it had seen them well into their teenage years. Suddenly the enormity of my children’s abandonment dawned on me.

‘You don’t mind them coming, do you?’ Angie asked me anxiously.

I stared at her, uncomprehending.

‘I’ve only got them for one day, thanks to Tom throwing his weight around and saying he wanted to see them. They have to go back to school after lunch.’

I came to. ‘Of course not, I’m thrilled. And mine will be delighted.’

I watched Clemmie’s eyes light up at the sight of them. She threw herself at Clarissa’s legs. Frankie, on the other hand, bit her thumbnail and looked guarded. I turned. Forced myself on.

‘Now, what else needs to go through?’

‘Nothing,’ drawled Peggy. ‘It’s all going like clockwork. Everyone’s very busy.’

‘Yes, well, you’re not, so why don’t you take these round?’ Angie put a plate of sausages in her hands, knowing Peggy’s mischief-making of old. ‘Is she being a pain?’ she asked when Peggy, sliding off her stool and disappearing with a sly smile, was out of earshot.

I shrugged. ‘You know Peggy.’

‘I do. No social code. When Tom went, she said I’d handed Tatiana to him on a plate,’ she said grimly.

I was silenced, because of course we had all thought that. When Angie employed a smiling, honey-haired, heavily breasted maiden from Auckland to muck out her horses and live in her cottage, we’d all wondered what planet she was on. And then watched in horror as Angie had gone off to yoga on a Monday, and bridge on a Thursday. The curtains in Tatiana’s bedroom would close almost before Angie’s car was out of the drive. Peggy hadn’t known, otherwise she certainly would have told her, and by the time Jennie and I had had endless cups of coffee and dithered and discussed and were honestly just about to break the news – it was too late. Angie was left in the gorgeous Queen Anne manor on the edge of the village with its bell tower and tennis court and gables, whilst Tom ravaged his nubile New Zealander in the horrifically sexy-sounding village of Tussle-under-Winkwood. Satisfyingly, when the pair of them travelled all the way to New Zealand to tell her parents the good news and then returned, she hadn’t been allowed back in the country. But that didn’t last long; she winkled her way in eventually, just as she had into Angie’s home, and her husband’s heart.

‘You know what Peggy said to me when we heard about Phil?’ Angie paused to turn and warm her bottom on the Aga.

‘I bet you wish it had been Tom?’ hazarded Jennie.

‘Exactly.’

‘And do you?’ I asked, wondering where I’d put the cake knife, if I ever had one.

‘Of course.’ Angie raised her chin. In the light, her lovely, sculpted face was fretted with fine lines. She shook back her flaming red-gold hair. ‘It would be so much neater, wouldn’t it? No messy stepmother only a fraction older than my daughters, no drifting between two houses. I’m deeply jealous. And look at all the sympathy you get.’ She waved her hand at the gathering in the next room, the flowers, the cards. ‘All I get is – well, of course she had it coming to her.’

‘That’s not true,’ muttered Jennie, knowing it was.

‘And on a more personal note, if I can’t have my man,’ Angie went on, ‘I certainly don’t see why anyone else should.’

‘Whereas, you see, I wouldn’t mind,’ Jennie said airily. ‘I’d quite like Dan to live elsewhere and just visit me at weekends. Someone else could wash his dirty underpants, sort through the insurance claims, the unpaid bills.’

‘No one believes you, Jennie,’ I told her.

‘Ah, but that’s because you don’t think I’ve got it in me,’ she said, dark eyes suddenly flashing. ‘Don’t think I’ll wake up one morning – when the next Troy incident occurs – and say, “Enough!” ’

This, a reference to last Christmas, when Dan, driving home from work after a protracted boozy lunch, pranged his car into a crash barrier on the A41. Sensing he was too pissed to call the AA, he’d left his immobilized vehicle on the hard shoulder and proceeded to walk home. He’d reckoned without a passing motorist calling the police, though, and soon the nearest patrol car – a dog handler, as it happened, complete with Alsatian named Troy – had found Dan’s abandoned vehicle. In moments they were out of their car and tailing Dan across country. Knowing his house to be literally over the next hill, Dan was taking the scenic route back to the village where, coincidentally, on that moonlit night, the entire population had gathered around the Christmas tree on the green to sing carols. All of a sudden Dan, in the shaky beam of his pursuer’s torch, in a pinstriped suit, briefcase flapping, ran hell for leather over the hill towards us, an Alsatian on his heels. As the handler shouted, ‘Get him, Troy!’ Troy did, and with his children watching wide-eyed on the green, Dan was brought down by his trouser leg, pinned until a back-up police van arrived, then bundled, limping, unceremoniously into the back of it.