Adrenaline surges my bloodstream as I get my bearings. I finally manage to get the belt loose and fall out of my seat on top of him. I cry out at the stabbing pain that shoots from my right shoulder through the whole rest of me at the impact. He grunts and opens his eyes.

“We’ve got to get out of here, Jonathan!” I say, shaking him.

He blinks a few times, then seems to realize where we are. “Shit!” he groans, feeling around in the dark for his seat belt latch. “What the fuck happened?”

I snap open his buckle and untangle his seat belt from his body, then stand and reach for the passenger door above us and let out another shriek at the pain in my right shoulder. I yank the handle with my left hand and try to push it open, but it’s too heavy, or stuck, or something.

I scramble between the seats into the back, and when I reach the cargo door and tug the lever, it falls open with a groan and a thud. “Come on!”

He topples over the seat and staggers back to where I am. I get down on my belly and slither out. When I stand, I see the silhouette of a man looking down at us in the streetlights up on the road.

“Help!” I call.

My head pounds and through my double vision I see the streetlights glint off something in the guy’s hand. There’s a pop, then a chink on the door of the van at my feet. For an instant I stare up at the guy, my brain unable to register what’s happening. Jonathan drags himself through the door and is still on his stomach in the dirt when two more pops sound from up on the road. A patch of dirt near Jonathan’s face explodes.

He grunts and then sucks in a hissing breath. “Fuck! Get down, Red!” He grabs my legs and rolls me in the dirt so we’re behind the van. “He’s shooting at us!”

Chapter Fifteen

HE THROWS ME onto the ground behind the van, covering me with his body, and I’m sure my head just exploded with the impact. Shouts sound from up on the road, and my mind struggles to put together the pieces of what’s happened in the last ten minutes in a way that makes any shred of sense. I wait, disoriented and facedown in the ditch, my heart pounding and Jonathan on top of me. My eyes dart through the dark, assessing our surroundings and looking for a way out. There’s really nowhere to run. We’re in a ditch maybe ten or twelve feet below the road, with a cement sound wall behind us. It’s too high to get over. And if we run to either side, we’ll be in plain sight of the guy up the embankment.

On the road above, there’s the squeal of tires.

“Sam!”

Blake’s voice cuts through the night and my racing heart races faster with the renewed adrenaline.

“Sam!” There’s a rustling in the dead grass at the side of the road. “Sam! Are you down there?”

“Jonathan,” I say, bucking against him, but he doesn’t move. “Jonathan, let me up.”

I slither out from under him, rolling him onto his back, and that’s when I see the crimson bloom on his T-shirt below where my blood stains his shoulder.

“Oh, God!” I stagger to the end of the van and see Blake skidding down the embankment toward us. “Blake! Help! Jonathan’s shot!”

He looks up and sees me. “Stay there!” He half runs, half slides down the rest of the embankment and skids to a stop in front of me. “You’re bleeding.”

“I’m fine,” I say, pushing him back. “But Jonathan is shot. He needs help!”

My voice shakes so bad it doesn’t even sound like words, but Blake seems to get it. He lurches around the side of the van, pulling his phone from his pocket. “Direct pressure,” he tells me, kneeling next to Jonathan and bunching his T-shirt in his fist over the wound.

I kneel at Jonathan’s side as Blake calls for an ambulance. “You’re going to be okay,” I tell Jonathan, lifting his T-shirt to find the wound. He’s bleeding from a spot low on his right side, and I press my hand into it and lean my face near his, saying what he’s said to me so many times. “I’ve got you.” A tear leaks over my lashes as I slip a hand around his neck and rest his head on my knee. “I’ve got you, Jonathan. You’re going to be okay.”

Despite the fact that I’m starting to feel dizzy, I keep talking to him, and it seems like forever later when I hear the sirens. As they get closer, I bend down to be sure he’s still breathing, leaning my cheek near his nose and mouth. I feel his breath on my face and drop my forehead onto his, relieved.

“Hey, Red,” he whispers as a hand cups my breast.

“Don’t you die on me,” I tell him.

A ghost of a smile curves his lips as his fingers give a weak squeeze. But then his hand falls away and his eyes flutter shut again.

I look up to see Blake staring at us.

“Are they almost here?” I ask.

He nods.

I lower my face into Jonathan’s shoulder and press harder against the wound on his side. “Stay with me,” I whisper.

I hear people crashing through the night, and I’m being pulled back from Jonathan. I let them move me, as much as I don’t want to, because I know Jonathan needs more than what I can give him.

I watch, numb, as the paramedics load him on a stretcher and drag him up the hill. It’s only once he’s gone that I realize I’m sitting in the dark, on the ground, leaning against Blake’s body. Blades of light slice through the dark, catching the steam rising from the van like something out of Jonathan’s stage show. As a flashlight beam glides over my face on its way to door of the van, a stabbing pain shoots through my head and I gasp.

Blake’s arms tighten around me. “I need some help over here!”

His voice, so close to my ear, sends another spike of pain through my skull.

“Let me look at your face,” a uniformed woman says, crouching over me with a flashlight.

“I’m fine,” I say, trying and failing to pull myself to my feet.

“Hold still, Sam. You’re bleeding,” Blake says, and for the first time I detect a tiny shake in his voice. I look at him and, in the periphery of the flashlight beam, his eyes are too wide and the icy blue has melted into something deeper.

The paramedic is careful not to shine the beam directly into my eyes as she prods my right cheekbone with her gloved fingers. “This might need stitches,” she says. “I need to bring you in so we can get a closer look at this and check you for concussion.”

“I’m fine,” I repeat, louder. My voice reverberating around my skull sends another shooting pain through my brain. I gasp and lift my hand to my temple to stop it.

“You’re not fine,” Blake says. “You have a concussion.”

“Shut up, Blake,” I say, softer, gaining my feet. It’s harder than I think it’s going to be, and I stagger.

Blake puts his arm around my waist. “I’ll help you get her up the hill,” he says to the paramedic.

I jerk out of his grasp, and I swear the effort ruptures my brain. I cry out with the pain in my head and drop to my knees when my legs won’t hold me. But the next second, Blake scoops me into his arms, cradling my head firmly to his muscled chest. He scrambles up the embankment toward the flashing lights up top.

I try to protest, but the pain in my head stops me and I give up and sink into him. He makes the road and lays me on a gurney near the ambulance, and the blare of sirens nearly kills me. I want to press my palms to my ears, but my arms feel too heavy to lift. Headlights wash over me, and the light is too bright, shocking my brain. I whimper and close my eyes as a black car skids to a stop next to the ambulance and the lights click off.

“How is she?”

I recognize Cooper’s voice, and I want to tell him I’m fine, but my voice won’t obey.

“She’s pretty banged up,” Blake answers. “Did you get him?”

“No,” Cooper says. “I lost him off Grand. The locals are sweeping the area.”

I’m jostled as my gurney is hoisted into the ambulance.

“Where are you taking her?” Blake asks.

“General,” the paramedic answers.

I don’t open my eyes, but the light through my eyelids as I’m loaded into the ambulance is painful. I groan as the paramedic presses my eyelid open with a thumb.

“Light,” I say, trying to twist my head out of her grasp.

She lets me go and reaches up for a switch. The light dims and the pain in my head instantly recedes.

When the paramedics get me settled and strap the gurney in, one of them pokes at my face again and then roots through a drawer in a stand at the head of the bed, pulling a gauze bandage from a packet and pressing it hard to my face. The pressure stings and I let out a groan.

A warm hand grasps mine. “You’re going to be okay,” Blake says quietly. He must believe it, because I can hear the relief in his voice.

“If you’ll step out of the ambulance, sir,” someone says. “We need to get her to the hospital.”

“I’m coming,” Blake says. “DEA. She’s in protective custody.”

The same someone cuffs a laugh. “Then you guys are doing a pretty shitty job of it.”

I open my eyes in time to see Blake flashing his badge at a guy in a paramedic uniform.

“I don’t want him in here.” It comes out garbled, and I’m having trouble thinking straight enough to remember why.

What happened?

The image of Jonathan lying on the ground, bleeding, is the last thing I see before everything goes black.


I HAVE NO idea where I am when I wake up, but as I look around the room, it all comes back.

“Jonathan,” I say, but it comes out a weak croak.

“He’s going to be okay.”

Blake’s voice is the last thing I expect, so when it comes, so close to my ear, I suck in a breath.

The room spins as I turn my head to see him. He’s sitting next to my bed, his short sandy hair smashed on one side in a sexy case of bed-head. “What are you doing here?”