Christy and I had fucked every once in a while. I had met her at a party and she was all over me. Of course I was drunk and taking her home that night I attempted to fuck Ash out of my system. After that I guess you could say we were fuck buddies. Whenever I needed a release she was there; lying on her back, wet and ready. I didn’t care about getting her off. I just needed to fuck Ashlynn out of my head. But every time I looked at Christy my dick would start to get soft. Any girl for that matter really. So I would close my eyes and when I closed my eyes every single time I saw Ash. Before I knew it I would be pumping into Christy and coming. I always had to bite my lip because there were a few times when I almost roared Ashlynn’s name.

I may be an asshole but I know calling another girl’s name out in bed is, well, you just don’t do it. I mean unless your cock and balls aren’t important to you. So I just picture the girl in my head while slamming into another girl and trying to block out the fake moans and whimpers because the only whimpers and moans I want to hear … are Ash’s.

The second I found out Ash broke up with Derrick I quit seeing Christy. I just couldn’t take it anymore. I thought maybe since Ashlynn was happy I would be happy but her happiness was not because of me. It was with a guy she barely knew and I hated every second of it. They were always so touchy feely around me and every single time I wanted to beat the fuck out of him. It was bad enough I had to see him hold her hand or kiss her on the lips but I became enraged thinking about what they were doing behind closed doors, or when I wasn’t there.

I also hated the little prick because when nobody else was looking he would give me these little winks or smiles. Almost as if he was baiting me and telling me that he was with Ashlynn and I wasn’t and probably never would be.

I still held out a small amount of hope that maybe Ash could fix the huge ass problems in my life, but I knew it wouldn’t be easy. And plain and simple I honestly didn’t think I’m worth saving so I let her live her life.

I sounded like a fucking stalker but she meant everything to me. I held out for the moments where I could make her laugh from a comment. I held out for the moments that I could hold her in my arms while she cried. I held out for the moments where I got to see her beautiful face and that smile she gave me. Sometimes I’d watch her when she smiled at other people and I swear to Christ the way she looked at me was different compared to everyone else. But I thought that just my mind was playing crazy tricks on me because Ash would never look in my direction. To her I was just her best friend’s annoying twin brother and nothing else.

There have been numerous times where I had wanted to tell Ash how I felt about her or show her. I’d wanted to throw her up against the wall and just devour her mouth. Say, “fuck the world,” and go for it, but she didn’t need someone flipping it upside down, sideways, front to back, and every which way in between.

Although now that I mention that it would be nice if we were naked up against the wall or in the backseat of a car fucking each other’s brains out. But this is Ash and I wouldn’t want to fuck her. I would want to take my time with her and have her moan and writhe in enjoyment and come undone beneath me. Over and over again.


I don’t know what it was but ever since we got on the plane to come and surprise Iz for her birthday something was just sticking out about Ashlynn and I couldn’t take it much longer. The second I put my bag in the overhead compartment she made little grunting noises of distaste and disgust. She didn’t talk to me the entire flight to Vegas because she just put her head phones in her ears and listened to music while reading a book. Since I had no form of entertainment I just slept and dreamt about Ash.

Once we all checked into our rooms and dropped off our bags we went to go surprise Iz for her birthday. She was so excited when she opened the door and after the initial shock she let us all in. We hung out for a little bit and then Maddox sent Isabelle, Sarah, Jade, Patrick, and Ash to the spa for the day to get facials and a bunch of girly shit done to them.

Not one of them needed it, especially Ash. She was a lot like Iz in that she rarely wore make-up and when she did it was mascara. Ash is a beautiful girl but I always wondered what it would be like seeing her waking up in the morning in my arms.

After the girls left Maddox, Gabe, Derrick, and I went down to the casinos to do some gambling. None of us were really that good but we had fun drinking a few beers and bullshitting about nothing important. Maddox wouldn’t shut up about how happy he was with Iz. Gabe couldn’t shut up about how he couldn’t wait to marry Sarah. Meanwhile I wanted to punch both of them in their fucking faces because they just kept rambling.

I was happy they were both happy but they just kept talking and talking and talking. So I just picked up my beer bottle and started chugging when Maddox said, “So Derrick what’s going on with you?”

I wasn’t really interested in hearing what that fuck had to say so I tried to mentally block it out but then he said, “Oh, I’m dating someone.”

I started choking on my beer and when I calmed down I looked over at the asshole.

He was going on and on about how amazing the person was and how he saw a future with them.

I instantly saw red and started yelling at him. “ARE YOU FUCKING SERIOUS? YOU JUST BROKE UP WITH ASH! WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY ARE YOU EVEN HERE?”

I slammed my beer bottle on the table and was getting up to knock the bastard out when Maddox stepped behind me and said, “Calm down, Jason.”

Somehow I managed to get him off of me and turned my anger on him. “ARE YOU KIDDING ME RIGHT NOW! WHY WAS THAT ASSHOLE EVEN INVITED?”

That’s when Gabe stood up and grabbed my arm. “Can I see you for a minute?”

I let out the breath I was holding and said, “Yeah sure.”

Gabe and I walked into the corner and I was just about to apologize when Gabe said, “Look Jason, I invited Derrick because I really like him. We are all here to celebrate Iz’s birthday and Sarah and my upcoming nuptials. We ARE NOT here for you to become all macho and start stupid arguments. You hear me?”

I looked away because if I didn’t I would have punched Gabe in the face and then I would have to deal with Sarah. And if I thought Jade was scary when she was angry I can only imagine what Sarah’s like. I looked back at Gabe and staring at him I pointed in the direction of Maddox and Derrick and said, “Fine but if I hear that asshole motherfucker talk about his girl one more time while we’re here I will fuck his shit up. I’m not kidding Gabe.”

And for the life of me Gabe laughed and said, “Alright killer, let’s go back.”

Like what the fuck is his problem. I was surprised I was the only one getting pissed at Derrick mentioning the girl he was seeing while Ash was our friend.

I decided to get ready in Sarah and Gabe’s room because I didn’t know if Ash was still mad at me so I just wanted to give Ash her space. When we went to dinner I tried to sit as far away from her as possible but of course the only other available seat at the table was the one right across from her.

I tried to not look in her direction because Christ, my dick was already swelling up just catching a glimpse at what she was wearing. She had on this tight red dress that dipped in the front and showed off her perky tits. I couldn’t help licking my lips because I wondered just how sweet they would taste in my mouth. I mean I am a guy after all and Ashlynn was WOW!