Emily McKee - A Beautiful Mess

I really needed to hear Jade tell me that. Growing up I had always told Jade that she was nothing like mom, so why then would I think I would end up like dad? In the end we were two people who had our own minds and could make our decisions. We didn’t need the influence of both our fucked up parents to come to those conclusions on our own.

Wrapping my sister in my arms I kissed her on the top of the head and got up from the couch.

Jade jumped up and said, “Where are you going Jason?”

Grabbing my keys off the breakfast bar I said, “I’m going to go see my girl and my baby.”

With a big smile across her face and tears in her eyes Jade said, “Go get the both of them Jason and never let go.”

My hand was on the door handle but I ran back over to Jade and hugged her again. Leaning away from her I said, “Thanks Jade, I don’t know where I would be without you. I love you so much.”

Smiling up at me she said, “I love you too Jason, now go.”

Winking at her, I ran out of the front door, hopped in the car, and sped towards my future.

I tried to drive as fast as I could without getting pulled over by the cops but it still took the longest six minutes of my life. Doing a half ass parking job I jumped out of the car, bolted up the stairs and knocked and knocked and knocked until the front door opened to Ash and Jade’s apartment.

Ashlynn opened the door and the view took my breath away. Even though her eyes were swollen from crying, her nose was red, and her face was scrunched up I still had a huge smile on my face. Looking away from her face, I looked down at her stomach and couldn’t believe that Ashlynn and I had made a baby. That we were going to be parents.

Looking back up at her face I smiled and cradling her face in my hands I kissed her. I swept my tongue along her lower lip and felt her arms reaching up and wrapping around me. I let go of her face and wrapped my arms around waist and lifted her up onto me. Encompassing her legs around me I walked into her apartment and shut the door behind me with my foot. I never took my mouth from hers as I walked us back to her room and slowly laid her down on the bed.

She giggled against my mouth and said, “I’m pregnant Jason, I’m not dying.”

Lifting myself off of her I said, “I know you’re pregnant and with my child.”

Moving down her body I lifted her t-shirt and kissed her stomach. She wrapped her fingers in my hair as I kissed all over her stomach and said, “I love you little one. I love you so much.” I then crawled back up Ash’s body and said, “I’m so sorry Ash. I love you so much.”

Kissing me she whispered against my mouth, “Then show me.”

Getting onto my knees I pulled Ash up with me and lifted her t-shirt up and over her. I then unclasped her bra and dropped it onto the floor. Placing her hands to the hem of my shirt I lifted my arms as she pulled it off me. Pushing her back down to the bed I kissed her, sucking her lower lip into my mouth and nibbling down on it. I rolled and pulled her nipples in between my fingers as she ran her hands up and down my back.

Breaking free of the kiss I got up off the bed. Never taking my eyes off of Ash I pushed my sweats and boxers down while she lifted her hips and took off her shorts and thong. Once all of our clothes were on the floor I got back up on the bed and nestled in between her legs.

I started to a push a finger inside of her but she said, “Jason, I need you inside of me.” Wrapping her legs around me I pushed all the way inside her. We never took our eyes off one another as she gasped and I shuddered.

I don’t think I’ll ever get used to the fact that Ashlynn loves me and that our child is growing inside of her. It’s an overwhelming experience and one I will certainly not mess up on.

I knew that I wasn’t going to last long and just a few strokes in I grunted, “I love you Ash.” Pulling my head down to hers she kissed me and I thrust into her a few more times we both fell over the edge into a state of bliss. As I kissed and sucked along her neck she ran her fingertips up and down my back. Looking up into her eyes I kissed her and pulled out.

Getting off her and lying on my side she turned over to look at me with a smile on her face. Moving my hand up to her face I stroked her cheek as I said, “I’m so sorry, Ash.”

She smiled at me and said, “It’s ok, Jason.”

Shaking my head back and forth I said, “No, it’s not. I let the best the thing that’s ever happened in my life leave and it took Jade slapping me and talking to me to fully realize that I make my own choices in life and I’m nothing like my dad.”

Lifting her head to look at me she said, “You are nothing like your dad, Jason.”

Nodding my head I said, “I know.”

Kissing me on the cheek she leaned and back said, “Jade talked to you?”

I let out a laugh and said, “I know, right? Who would have thought that Jade was the one filled with all the wisdom? But I guess with all the mistakes she’s made she learns from them. So I guess it’s a good thing.”

Kissing me again Ash said, “Be nice to your sister.”

Wrapping Ash in my arms, I ran my hand up and down her back and for the first time in a really long time I was happy with my life. All of the reasons had Ashlynn Miller in them.

Lifting her head from my chest, she asked, “What are you thinking about?”

Looking down at her I said, “How happy I am right now and it’s all because of you.”

Crawling up to my face she kissed me and said, “I love you, Jason Williams.”

Cupping her face in my hand I said, “I’m in love with you, Ashlynn Miller,” and pulled her on top of me.

After making love again she lifted herself up off me and lay on her back. I don’t even think she realized what she was doing but she was smiling as she slowly rubbed her stomach. For a couple of minutes I just watched her and I couldn’t wait to see our child grow inside of her. I also pictured a little girl who looked just like Ashlynn but caused a lot of trouble like me or a little boy who looked just like me but had a heart of gold like his mother.

Getting on my elbows and smiling down at Ash I said, “You’re going to be a mom.”

She let out a laugh and said, “I know. I’m going to be a mom and you’re going to be a dad.”

Letting out a breath I smiled because it just hit me. Kissing Ash on the lips I looked into her eyes and said, “I’m going to be a dad.”

Sucking in air she said, “Now we just have to tell mine.” 

Ashlynn

I couldn’t believe how quickly Jason came around to me being pregnant with our child and it was all thanks to Jade. I don’t know what I would have done if she wasn’t there to help clean up the mess. Jade had really surprised me throughout the whole process and I don’t think I could ever thank her enough for bringing my Jason back to me. Jason wanted to tell everyone the second I was pregnant but I wanted to wait until the second trimester. I’d heard it was bad luck to tell earlier and I was scared something would happen to our little one.

Today was our first visit to the doctor’s for my ultrasound. I couldn’t wait to see my little peanut growing inside of my stomach. I knew I had to tell my dad soon but I wanted to have the ultrasound picture first. Jason surprised me big time after he came back around because he won’t let me do anything. It’s already driving me crazy and I’m not even showing yet but I love him so much.

We’ve been alternating between staying at each other’s apartments but I know we’re going to have to find a new place for us to live before our little peanut is born. I ended up staying at Jason’s last night so he drove me to the library and said he would be back at two for our doctor’s appointment. The second I clocked out of work I opened my phone to text him. As I exited the front doors of the library I saw Jason leaning against the passenger door waiting for me.

Walking up to him I kissed him on the cheek and he opened my door. Bowing he said, “Your chariot awaits.”

I just laughed at him and said, “Oh my god, you’re ridiculous.”

Leaning in to kiss me, he put a hand to my stomach and said, “I just don’t want anything to happen to you or our little man.”

Kissing him on the lips I said, “You don’t know if our baby is a boy and we won’t even find out until the second trimester.”

Leaning into me he winked and said, “Oh, I know it’s a boy Ash.” Shaking my head I got into the car and buckled up as he closed the door.

The whole drive to the doctor’s office Jason was acting so giddy. His leg was bouncing up and down and he was talking a mile a minute. He couldn’t wait to see our baby on the sonogram machine and neither could I, but I was a little nervous about telling my dad that he was going to be a granddad. I was also scared for Jason’s life because I didn’t know how daddy would react to it.

After we walked into the doctor’s office and filled out all of the necessary forms we were taken into a private room where we waited for the doctor. I sat down on the table and just watched Jason jumping up and down all over the place full of adrenaline and excitement. I started laughing and then all of a sudden I got a little heart burn. I must have made a noise because Jason bolted over to me with a worried look on his face.

Placing a hand to my stomach he asked, “Are you okay, Ash?”

I kissed him on the cheek. “Relax Jason, everything is fine. I just have a little heartburn; nothing to worry about.”

He shook his head like he understood but he was still biting his lower lip and I knew he was worried. I was just about to tell him to calm down when the doctor walked in and Jason started rambling to her about my heartburn. The doctor looked at me and just smiled.