Before Pia could answer, KT grasped Tory’s hand with unexpected strength. Although her voice was weak, her tone was forceful. “Tory, let it go. It’s not Pia’s fault.”

“God damn it, KT.” Tory covered KT’s ringers with her own, rubbing the back of KT’s hand with surprising gentleness. “You are so frigging hardheaded.”

A faint smile curled KT’s lips as she took a shuddering breath. “Yeah. You just noticed?”

“I’m going to go back to the clinic for some Catapres and a couple of bags of saline,” she said, turning to Pia. “Can you stay with her until I get back?”

“I wasn’t planning on leaving,” Pia replied evenly.

“I’m sorry for jumping on you.” Tory met Pia’s eyes. “I don’t know how it’s possible, but for a few seconds there, I forgot just how stubborn she is.”

“That’s putting it mildly.” Pia glanced at KT tenderly, unaware of just how revealing her expression was, before giving Tory a smile. “It’s okay. I’m glad you’re here. Maybe between the two of us we can handle her.”

“Maybe. Just.” As Tory passed Pia, she grasped her hand and squeezed lightly. “I’m honestly sorry.”

Pia shook her head, her voice low as she walked out into the hall with Tory. “It’s really all right. It’s hard, seeing her like this.”

“Are you okay?” Tory asked gently. For the first time, she noticed the circles under Pia’s eyes.

“Yeah.” She pushed a hand through her hair and shook some of the tension out of her shoulders before leaning back against the wall. “I’ve been watching her carefully. I would have called you if things had gotten worse. She’s just…so proud, you know?”

The corner of Tory’s mouth lifted into a weary smile. Another barrier that she had tightly constructed around her heart to bury the memory of what she had once felt for KT fell away. Surprisingly, the only thing she now felt was gratefulness that Pia had seen past KT’s facade. “Yes, I know.”

“This is all so terrible for her the damage to her hand, the constant pain, and now this.” Pia’s eyes drifted back to the bedroom. “I just didn’t want to make it any worse.”

Tory realized with a sinking feeling that she had seen KT every day for weeks and hadn’t noticed what she had been going through. Hadn’t really allowed herself to see KT’s struggles or her pain. My God, I missed a drug addiction in my own colleague, A woman I once knew as well as I knew myself. Is that what my anger has done to me?

“You haven’t made anything worse. On the contrary.” Tory slid her arm around Pia’s shoulders and gave her a hug. “I think you being here is just what she needs.”

Pia blushed, suddenly aware that they were discussing Tory’s ex-lover. “I’ll wait until you get back. Then if you want to stay with her…”

“Actually, Reese is picking Regina up from Kate’s, so I’ve got a little time. I’ll get the things from the clinic, and then we can decide.” She tilted her head and regarded Pia seriously. “Do you need a break?”

“No. I just want to stay with her.” As it was, even being out of the room was making Pia uneasy. What she really wanted to do was climb back onto the bed and hold KT. She didn’t bother to analyze her feelings. She was too raw emotionally to even try. All she knew was what she felt, and what made her feel right was having KT in her arms.

“Then you should stay. You can always call me if there seems to be a problem. Once she’s hydrated and we counteract some of the adrenergic symptoms with the Catapres, she’ll be more comfortable.”

“I hope so. I can’t stand seeing her like this.”

Tory gave Pia’s hand another squeeze. “Go on back to her. I’ll run over to the clinic and get what we need to make her comfortable.”

“Thanks,” KT said quietly as Tory finished taping the intravenous line to her right arm. She looked down and lifted both hands an inch off the bed before letting them fall back. “Well, now I’m well and truly fucked.”

“As soon as a second bag goes in, Pia can put a cap on this IV line, and you’ll be able to use your arm a little bit more freely.” Tory began removing the detritus left on the bed from the containers that had housed the IV tubing, intravenous catheters, and the bag of normal saline. She stopped moving when KT caught her wrist.

“I guess you’re pretty angry, huh?” KT asked.

Tory finally looked up into KT’s anguished eyes, “Why in God’s name didn’t you come to me? Do you have any idea how bad this could’ve gotten, especially if Pia hadn’t come by today? What were you thinking?”

KT winced under the verbal onslaught. Despite the intravenous hydration and the sedative that Tory had given her, she hurt all over, her stomach threatened to revolt at any second, and her head reeled with dizziness. On top of that worse than that, really was the knowledge that both Tory and Pia had seen her so helpless and pathetic. She didn’t think things could get much worse. “I didn’t know. I should have, but I didn’t. I just…since the accident…I just wasn’t thinking.”

Carefully, Tory sat on the bed, her hip against KT’s. ” I should’ve noticed.”

“It’s not like I’ve been walking around stoned, Tory,” KT pointed out wearily. “But the damn drug sneaks up on you. I definitely had a physical addiction, and I’m sure the psychological dependency wasn’t far off.” She leaned her head back against the pillows and sighed. “If I hadn’t almost OD’d after two drinks last night, I probably wouldn’t have figured it out until it was too late.”

“God,” Tory murmured, reaching out to stroke KT’s cheek. She stopped herself with a jolt just before her fingers made contact and quickly drew back. “I’m sorry. If I had been paying more attention, this wouldn’t have happened.”

“Bullshit,” KT said with as much conviction as she could manage.

Tory smiled wanly. “I’ll stop by in the morning to see how you’re doing.”

“Make Pia go home.”

“When pigs fly.” Tory laughed. “I could barely get her to go home for something to eat and a shower. I don’t think she trusts me to look after you.”

KT smiled softly. “She was great today.”

“I’m glad she was here,” Tory said, surprised at just how much she meant that. It had shaken her badly to see KT so debilitated and frightened her even more than she wanted to admit to realize that KT might have succumbed to an overdose. She stood up and gathered her gear. “Pia should be back any minute. I’m going to head home.”

“You won’t tell anyone about this, will you, Tory?”

“God, of course not.” Tory looked shocked. “This isn’t your fault. And I know you well enough to know this isn’t going to be a long-term problem.”

“I should have seen it coming. And…it didn’t help to add alcohol on top of the meds.”

“No, it didn’t,” Tory agreed. She brushed her fingers over KT’s arm. “But you recognize that now, and you’re more than paying for that mistake. I trust you not to repeat it.”

“Thanks.” With a sigh, KT closed her eyes.

Tory made her way quietly through the house. “When she stepped out on to the back deck, Pia was just climbing the stairs. “I think she just fell asleep.”

Pia leaned against the railing, a book under one arm. “Good. What should I do tonight?”

“If she wakes up before morning in pain or agitated, you can give her another dose of Catapres. Keep the IVs running at the present rate until the second bag is in. Hopefully in another eight hours she’ll be able to keep something down. If not, we’ll give her a third liter of saline. Can you handle that?”

“Yes. When I used to work at Boston Hospital, most of my patients were in the ICU or step-down units. Changing IV bags was something I did routinely in the physical therapy department.”

“Good. And don’t let her tell you that she doesn’t need the medication. She’s going to be very uncomfortable as it is. Without it, it’ll be hell.”

Pia’s hands tightened on the book she held. She hated the thought of KT suffering. “Don’t worry. I won’t let her pull that macho stuff.”

Tory laughed. “How is it that you’ve got her figured out so quickly?”

“I don’t know that I do, but it’s not very hard to tell how much she’s been hurting.” Pia looked at Tory kindly. “Inside and out.”

“What happened between KT and me is ancient history. I told you that when we first met,”

“Yes, I remember.” Pia smiled. “In fact, you told me that the first night we had dinner together. I didn’t believe you then.” She squeezed Tory’s arm affectionately. “I do believe you now.”

“It’s easier to give up the anger now. When I think of Reese, I can’t imagine being without her. Looking back, I’m beginning to think it might not have been all KT’s fault that we didn’t work out.”

“Does it matter who was at fault?” Pia asked gently.

“I don’t know.” Tory leaned her back against the building opposite Pia and shook her head. “I’m beginning to think it doesn’t. I look at her now and my memories seem to be from a different lifetime.”

“Maybe that just means that the past is finally becoming the past for you.”

“And what about you?”

“Me?”

“And KT?”

“Ah,” Pia said softly. “I like her.”

“Mmm-hmm.”

“What can I say that you don’t already know? She’s smart and funny and gorgeous. And so sexy it’s criminal.” Pia laughed. “What’s not to like?”

“Uh-oh. Sounds like more than like to me,” Tory teased gently, realizing that it didn’t bother her to think that Pia, whom she’d always had a fondness for, was interested in KT. And seeing the way KT had looked at Pia that evening had made her forget why she’d been opposed to the idea when KT had first mentioned Pia’s name the day before.

“Well, until KT is back on her feet and we finish our therapy together, like is all it’s going to be.”

“Uh-huh.” Tory saw no point in reminding Pia that KT O’Bannon was not the kind of woman who sat back and waited for much of anything, especially a woman in whom she had an interest. And if the looks that had passed between Pia and KT throughout the evening were not an indication of strong mutual attraction, Tory couldn’t imagine what was. The two of them were deep in denial, but she didn’t think that would last much longer. “I’m going to go home to my own gorgeous, sexy woman. Call me if there’s any problem at all. Any time.”